Wednesday, December 30, 2015

Hiatus

Hey there!

When I started this blog, I was in the last few months of completing my undergraduate degree, had the intention of writing about my bucket list, and had ideas of writing reviews on shows and discussing cultural events.

In that first year, I wrote a total of four blogs. The next year 3, the next year 2. Not exactly what I had in mind. While this past year I had written the most blogs (12, 13 if you include this one!) I find myself lacking focus. I am not clear about the direction in which I am going with this blog, nor do I have a clear purpose for which I am writing this blog.

For the purpose of finding clarity, focus, purpose and intention, I am going to take a break from blogging. You can bet that when I return, it will be a much better and improved version of what I wrote and discussed in the past.

I hope everyone has a safe holiday and wonderfully prosperous new year!

Tif xo

Wednesday, November 25, 2015

I have hope for a better tomorrow.

The world is broken. 

There are countries at war. There are terror attacks occurring all over the world. There are countries without food, water, or shelter. There is still an unbelievable amount of racism, homophobia, and general hate in the world. It needs to stop.

I refuse to believe that it can't be fixed.

Over the course of November, whether it was for Remembrance Day or in response to the various terror attacks, my social media sites were flooded with love, gratitude, and hope. Despite the tragic reasons, there was something very uplifting about the support and the sense of community I saw for the world.

I truly believe that we can make a difference in the world and change it for the better. Like a drop of water in a pond, the ripple of what we feel for ourselves will move outward. So I propose the following, for you and for myself:

Start by loving and respecting the self.

Be kind.

Follow by showing love and gratitude for those in your immediate community (family and friends). Be in the moment. Take the time to indulge in the experience you have with your friends and family.

Support an organization or cause that is important to you. This will be different for every individual. For me, I value the arts & culture, and the environment. For a few years, I have been donating a small amount of money each month to World Wildlife Fund of Canada, and Greenpeace Canada as my way of helping the environment. I try as much as possible to reduce my waste, and I recycle wherever I can. I am looking to be more active with these organizations through various participatory positions (beyond donating money).
I am an active participant in arts & culture through various performance opportunities. I am looking forward to a long career in the arts & culture industry, whether that be as a performer or behind the scenes in some capacity. I live for the arts. I will always advocate for arts & culture in our communities.

I believe that the world would be so much more amazing if every individual did something in support of the causes they are passionate about. Imagine every person donating time, money or services in support of something positive! It may be the preservation of the environment and/or endangered species. It may be to help the homeless get off the street. It may be to help those with mental illness. It may be to help those with physical or mental impairments. It may be to help countries in need. The point is, if we are all helping in some way to make the world a better place, so much change would be in action!

If you do choose to support a cause, do your due diligence and research, research, research! There are hundreds of organizations that ask for support. Choose your cause(s) and then choose 1 or 2 organizations within that cause that resonate with you. Do what you can and want in support of that organization!

"If we are peaceful, if we are happy, we can smile and blossom like a flower, and everyone in our family, our entire society, will benefit from our peace."
Thich Nhat Hanh

Until next time,
Tif xo

What causes and/or organizations do you support? Do you do anything else to make a difference in your community and/or the world?




Wednesday, October 28, 2015

My Roaring 20s

As a person who enjoys and thrives most when being busy, the last few months have been somewhat of a struggle. I have had a lot of time for myself during the day before heading to work at night, and I feel that I haven't always filled that time productively. As a result, I have been down and hard on myself for not doing more in a day, for being lazy, and unfocused. In some ways, I felt as though I was being unsuccessful.

As I embark on my last days as a 20-something year old, I am reflecting on the last decade of my life to see what I have done and accomplished. In so doing, I have discovered that I have done well for myself. I am very proud of what I have accomplished, and am very grateful for the experiences I have had.

In the next decade, I hope to travel a lot, participate in just as many dance and theatre productions or more, book commercials and roles in film and tv, make music, make lots of memories with friends and family, and continue to live life with love!

Here are some highlights from the past decade of my life:

Graduated from Randolph Academy for the Performing Arts with a diploma in Musical Theatre

Graduated from York University with a BA Honours in Fine Art Cultural Studies, Dance minor

Participated in the CN Tower Climb
Performed with York Lions Dance Team, Oakville Longhorns Cheer Team, Vanier College Productions, First Act Productions, Can't Stand Sitting, Steppin' Out Theatrical Productions, Curtain Call Players, Confidential Music Theatre Project
Performed with Toronto Dance Project
Performed with newchoir
Traveled to: Budapest, Niagara Falls, Montreal, Mexico, Cuba
Traveled to New York City to perform with newchoir at Carnegie Hall!

Moved from Toronto to Coquitlam by driving through Canada!

What are some of your proudest accomplishments?

Wednesday, September 30, 2015

Life's Little Roller Coaster

This past month has been a mild roller coaster. Arriving in BC, and setting up my apartment with Chris was very exciting, and I was riding the momentum through my job application process. As the first weeks went on without offers, I was already starting to feel defeated, despite having kept busy with auditions and projects related to my performing career.

At one point, it seemed that I was on a very clear path to creating the life of my dreams. I had been offered (and accepted) a part-time job at a venue where I will be able to share my interests in hockey and music with the patrons! In addition, I was going to be teaching musical theatre to youth one day a week. I was very fortunate to be given this opportunity as I have little to no teaching experience. These two positions would allow me to continue to attend auditions, and participate in shows and projects in the performing arts industry. Due to reasons beyond my control (low enrollment), the classes were disappointingly cancelled. The feelings of defeat and frustration started to wash over me again. I have since been offered a short term contract (1 class over 3 weeks) to teach acting/musical theatre!

In the midst of all of the job applications and interviews, coupled with the awareness that my 30th birthday is fast approaching, I've been giving a lot of thought to the life I want to create for myself and the things I would like to accomplish. I have been learning a lot about myself, and what my basic needs are to be happy. Words that have been resonating with me throughout this time are confidence and pride. Confidence in myself, and in my journey. Pride in the people in my life, in the choices I have made and am making, and in the things I am doing to achieve my goals and dreams.

All of that was to say that, in my reflections, I have been revisiting my bucket list (revised edition below). I have carefully curated this list to reflect my hopes, dreams, and desires. I have tried, where possible, to be specific about when or how an item is accomplished.

What words help guide you through times of hardship? What are some of the items on your bucket list?

Until next time,
Tif xoxo

Tiffany's updated bucket list (I have included the things that I have accomplished on my previous bucket list at the bottom)

Travel - Chris and I have agreed to go on a major vacation every other year starting in 2017! Now to choose where to go first...
Cross Canada Trip - coast to coast
Northwest Territories
Yukon
Nunavut
New Brunswick
Newfoundland
PEI
Calgary Stampede
Lake Louise
Tofino
US roadtrip
Nashville - I am drawn because of it's place in music history
Texas - after working in a tex-mex restaurant for 4+ years, I want to experience the real thing!
San Francisco
New Orleans - maybe for Mardi Gras
Japan - for the Cherry Blossom Festival
China - it's part of my heritage and I want to see the Great Wall of China
Portugal - it's part of my heritage
England
Italy
France
Greece
Ireland
Spain
New Zealand
Australia
Egypt
Caribbean

Sightseeing/Experiences
See a shooting star
Watch a lunar eclipse - Sunday Sept. 27th, I saw the lunar supermoon eclipse, but I did not stay outside to watch it... that is my criteria: being outside to watch it from beginning to end.
Watch a solar eclipse - same criteria as lunar eclipse, must watch it from beginning to end.
See the Northern Lights
Ride an elephant
Hold a koala
Spend a night in a 5 star hotel
Dine at a 5 star restaurant

Activities
Polar Bear Swim
Plant a tree (or more)
Ride a bicycle (as embarrassing as it is to admit that I cannot ride a bike)
Ride in a hot air balloon
Ride a motorcycle
Ride in a helicopter
Zipline
Attend an event at the Winter Olympics
Attend an event at the Summer Olympics

Personal Development/Learning
ASL
Cantonese
Portuguese
Crochet
Knit
Sewing
Candle making
Piano - well enough to be comfortable playing in front of an audience
Ukelele - same as piano
Painting
Drive Standard - this way I can drive the car my boyfriend and I have!

Career
Record an album (or more) of original songs
Record an album of holiday songs
Sing the national anthem at a major sports event - ideally the NHL
Be a lead in a film, tv or web series
Be a lead in a musical or play

Life
Get married
Have children - of my own or adopted
Get my driver's licence - not just my N/class 7
Own a home

Previously Accomplished
Earn my undergraduate degree
Participate in the CN Tower Climb
Eat a deep fried mars bar
Have a pet
Get a tattoo
Attend a Tori Amos concert
Attend a Fiona Apple concert
NYC
Saskatchewan

Wednesday, August 26, 2015

Establishing Home, Sweet Home

After a week of driving and a week at Shuswap, Chris and I are at our new home! While I still miss the friends and family in Toronto, it is very nice to be among my friends and family in BC. While the grind of looking for employment is already wearing on us (even though we've only been looking for a little over a week), we are hopeful and excited to build
the life of our dreams together! Read on for details on the drive, the week at Shuswap, and our first week living in BC!

The Drive

The drive from Rockwood, Ontario to Scotch Creek, BC took us 6 days. Having driven through 5 provinces, I get to cross of seeing Saskatchewan off my bucket list, and am that much closer to my dream of seeing all the provinces and territories of Canada (the territories and maritimes are all that I have left to see!). I am sure I can make that happen when I do a coast to coast road trip across Canada.

I will be honest, the days kind of bleed together for me. With a cat in the car, we had hotels booked in the cities in which we planned to stay for the night, and were fairly efficient in getting from point A to point B each day. That being said, we definitely made stops at various landmarks and made time to enjoy the scenery. The photos below are some of my favorite moments of the drive. :)

Departing Rockwood.

Big Nickel.

Big Loonie.

Mrs. B's pizza in the hotel bed!

A peek at the scenery in Northern Ontario.

Winnie the Pooh!

A spontaneous moment enjoying Lake Superior.

Max the Moose.

The BEST steak I have ever eaten. Roundtable, Winnipeg.

Cyclones from Milky Way in Regina!

A rare moment of Spike loving the traveling life.

Helicopter statue somewhere between Regina and Calgary.

The endless horizon in the prairies.

Our lunch spot in Banff National Park .

Spike's first photo in BC.

Our first photo as a family in BC.

BC scenery.

The Vacation at Scotch Creek

Six days without having to get into a car! WHOOO!

I can't even begin to describe how wonderful it was to begin my return to living in BC by being on a vacation with my entire family. It was truly amazing to arrive at a beautiful lakeside condo, see my family, put our stuff in our room, and simply relax. And relax, we did! We spent time on my brother-in-law's boat, we swam in the lake, swam in the pool, soaked in the hot tub, lazed in the shade (it was very hot!), and played games. It was a week creating memories! See select highlights below! One highlight I wasn't able to capture is Dawn's surprise arrival!

Good morning sunrise!

Boat time!

The big boys on the tube.

Playtime/relaxation time on the mat.

Bocce ball.

Post-dinner activities with an impending storm.

Deer sighting! 

First Week as Residents of BC

In our first week, Chris and I were very productive in acquiring most of the necessary items for comfortable living. This is mostly due to the generosity of my family giving us items they had tucked away in storage. We had to wait a week before getting our mattress, so we spent some nights sleeping over at my parents' place and the rest of our nights sleeping on a pile of blankets on the floor in our apartment. We did this to help Spike get used to the new digs!

The majority of our furniture is from my family. We went to a few garage sales on the weekend and found our coffee table, and a few bookshelves that are functioning as our tv stand! On Saturday, after assembling our dresser, our bed frame, the bookshelves and having our mattress delivered, it really started to feel like home.

One of the bookshelves being used at our entrance.

We're going to fix this up to be a coffee table!

We have a bed!

Spike's favourite spot!


Now, our priority is finding employment! This task is testing us, both as individuals and as a couple. We are both pleasantly surprised that, despite having spent everyday for the past month together, we continue to enjoy being in each other's company! As much as I love spending time with my boyfriend, I am looking forward to getting out of the house and meeting new people.

Until next time,
Tif xo

Wednesday, July 29, 2015

For Every End, There is a New Beginning


I have been struggling to write this post for a few weeks now. There are so many things that I want to share about how I am feeling that I don't know exactly where to start. I am afraid that I won't find the right words to do justice to the experiences I have had these past 12 years in this city.

Am I excited? 
Am I sad?

Yes and yes.

I am excited to be on this adventure with the love of my life. I look forward to the experiences and memories we will create on our road trip through Canada. I am excited to be moving closer to my family.

That being said, I am sad that we are moving away from my love's family. I am sad to be leaving my friends. I am going to miss them. I am going to miss them dearly. I am so grateful to have been able to share in some awesome experiences with them, especially in the past few weeks.

To Toronto,

Thank you for letting me learn, make mistakes, grow, laugh, and love. Thank you for helping the girl I arrived as emerge and blossom into the woman I am today.


Student Residence Life 2004-2005
First Professional Headshot by Ian Brown - 2005
Randolph Academy Graduating Class of 2005
Starbucks Crew
York Lions Dance Team 2007 - 2008
Will You Love Me Tomorrow? - Nuit Blanche 2011
Vanier College Productions - The Drowsy Chaperone
York University Convocation 2012
newchoir 2013
Halloween 2013
Curtain Call Players - Young Frankenstein
Jays Game
Oakville Longhorns Cheer Team 2014
Toronto Dance Project 2014 - 2015
Nathan Philips Square - Panamania/Pan Am Games 2015


Wednesday, June 03, 2015

Bittersweet Moments

As many people know, Chris and I are preparing to move from Toronto to Vancouver. We are fast approaching moving date (August 4th!), and there are many things to be done in preparation (which I won't be boring you with here). In the midst of moving preparations, I have been rehearsing for a choir concert, The Art of Rock, which took place this past weekend, and a dance show, MUSEment, which runs June 24-26. I am feeling very bittersweet about the conclusion of my performances and my time here in Toronto.

I am so grateful to have been a part of newchoir this past season. Taking the stage for The Art of Rock made a dream of mine a reality: performing with Sarah Slean! I remember how I became a fan of her and her music. I was channel surfing and had come across the music video for Sweet Ones on MuchMoreMusic (now M3). I stopped to listen and watch the video, and was immediately intrigued. Upon watching this video and hearing the song, I went and looked up more of Sarah Slean's music. At this time, itunes and YouTube didn't exist so I think her website would have been how I got to hear more of her music, and I would have needed to go to a music store (which was probably Music World) to buy her album. I have been a fan of hers since viewing the Sweet Ones music video.

Sarah Slean is one of the artists that I take inspiration for my own music. Her music is definitely one that influences how I write (or how I would like to write) my own songs. For years, I have desired to work with her, and perhaps, perform with her. It brought me so much excitement and joy to be able to share the stage with her. I feel very blessed to have been singing Sarah Slean's songs with newchoir along with Ms. Slean, herself. I loved every minute!

Now, I prepare for what will likely be my final performances in Toronto (at least for now) with Toronto Dance Project. As excited as I am to be performing in MUSEment, I am also feeling sadness (hence the bittersweet comment above). There are only a handful of rehearsals left before we hit the stage. I intend on living in the moment of each of the rehearsals, and of each performance. I am grateful to have had the opportunity to work with such amazing choreographers, and to perform with a group of incredible dancers. This show is going to rock!



Until next time,
Tif xo

p.s. I'll see you in the audience! :)